22 November 2006 - Sian

today morning got a meeting but i was not involved. before the meeting, heard that it's going to be a scolding session. and true enough, the operation manager and programmers got scolding from boss and marketing manager. and out of surprise, my name was mentioned in the meeting. the marketing manager complained that i was doing nothing and it is true. i really got nothing much to do, my main job is to do spot checks on barges but now only left with 1 barge to check with 2 checkers. i do not know what's wrong with their brains, last time got 9 barges to check and so busy but no one said we busy, good work. now left with 1 barge, of course nothing to do and sit around office do nothing. i think next time got to go check everyday and waste time onboard.

when i was complaining to my dear on msn, realised she got scolding from agents n colleague due to some mistakes NOT MADE by her. she felt so sad and i felt sad for her too. these FUCKERS think they can push people around, wait till we climb higher or earn more than them, then i shall make them pay for bullying my dear. everyone is just making a living and working for others, so why make life difficult for us?

but a happy news today, I completed the part 1 of Fireworks self-learning program, still got a long way to go to complete all the programs but i am 1 step closer. it's hard to set aside time to self-study because i cannot do it openly in office and i got little time at home to do so. but i am sure, with perseverence, i WILL SUCCEED!

btw, today my mother came to our house and cook for us. but when we were chatting after dinner, i think i asked a wrong question, "when father coming back?" that trigger her anger and started talking bad things about father. then she told me my grandmother died partly because of my father. my mother wanted grandmother to stay with them but due to some reason, she did not fetch her over. this is the part which i do not understand what mother said, but anyway, she was angry with father. if my mother could fetch my grandmother over, then tragic will not happened. and my mother told me she was angry with my father that she do not want to visit my other grandmother. i was surprised to hear this and i thought mother was too busy to visit her.