14 May 2007

last sat, i accompanied him to the hospital because no one was free to bring him there. i was thinking, if others are really busy with something, i got nothing to complain, what if the others was not willing to bring him there? i stayed with grandfather till about 1830hrs before i went home. even though grandfather have not settled down but i know he was about to before i could make myself go home. i was sick too that day and so had to leave before he could settle down. i told the guy when i was tested for fever that i was sick before accompanying grandfather into A&E, he said i cannot go in but no choice, i am the only one accompanying grandfather, he must let me in.

today went to see grandfather at the Tan Tock Seng Hospital. he was there the 2nd time because his arms and legs are weak and doctors fear that it might be stroke early symptom. i was very sad to see grandfather in this state because he was always so strong even though he is now 82 years old. i really fear for the worst and no one wants to take care of him.

he told me not to tell people that we are related because he wanted to apply for some subsidies or something like that, but they need to know that he does not have relatives that can support him financially. was sad to hear this but guess he is doing this for our good, he does not want to disturb us. wonder what my stupid father is doing now, maybe exploring?