31 May 2006

Today is Wednesday n I am not updating my blog today because I feel happy n everything is back to normal. In fact, it's the opposite. The previous matter have not been settled n seems like there's a new rumour about my performance. Apparently, somone is talking behind my back, saying that I cannot find where the ships are located when I am tasked to go onboard. My colleague told me to ask properly in order to find the location of the ship n thus not wasting fuel n time.

He was referring to a job to a ship called Canter. Initially, the ship was supposed to be located at Eastern Bunkering Bravo or in short EBB. Then I called n asked if it's EBB, he said changed to EPA but it sounded like EBA. So I double confirm by asking if it's Eastern Bunkering Alpha, he said "YES!"

Then when I took the speedboat out to find Canter at EBA, I realised that the ship is not there. So I called again, n he kept saying EPA, EPA. I still could not make up what he said. Only at this moment, Canter's crew member, who were also onboard the speedboat, told me it's EPA. So the speedboat turned back n went to EPA.

The boatman immediately called Jason who was in charge of the boat to tell him I was informed wrongly about the location.

This incident has been a week ago n I thought nothing will happen. But I was wrong, someone apparently spread this around n the blame is on me. I am very very sad. I do not know what to do. Someone seems to be watching me from behind n waiting for me to do something wrong now n then.

Sad...

26 May 2006 - Moody

Recently, I was feeling very moody. Do not feeling like going to office, I do not know why. Could be because I am afraid to see boss. Haiz... never feeling this since I worked here for more than 6 months.
Today attended a 1 day course at Bestway building, by right after this course, I can be a bunker clerk but I am not working as a bunker clerk.
Do not know what to write today because my feeling too mixed up liao. Feel empty, stupid, lousy, angry, tired n boring. Empty because I do not know what to do with so many things happening in the office. Stupid n lousy because I am now 27, with a wife of more than 6 years n a 5 years old daughter, but I still earning that little money n no car. Angry because I still feel betrayed by someone who said I m not working properly. Tired n boring because I feel like taking a break n I know so do my wife. Oops... :)

Haiz... I think I should stop here n resume when I gets my feeling correct.

18 May 2006 - Bad people are everywhere

Today is Thursday n lots of unpleasant things are happening in my office. I have yet spoke to my boss because my boss seems unhappy recently. I have afraid to be in between the crossfire though I m near to the crossfire (read my previous post for more info). I m getting more n more afraid as 2 colleagues already got fired because they did not do their job properly but they were caught red-handed. N 1 of the colleagues worked in the company for many years. My other colleagues had tried to help him talk to boss n allow him to stay but boss decision was unclear. I just hope he gets a 2nd chance because he is quite a nice guy among other colleagues.

Sometimes, I really regretted leaving my previous company because it's so safe n comfortable there. But the very bad point is, my salary are pretty low n standard. Comfortable can be dangerous because it causes one to slack n deteriorate in performance. I know because I was in that state for a few months before I left the company.

The current company is really full of bad people, spies n 小人。 I always have to watch my back for any back stabber. Isn't this world full of surprises?

N bad people are everywhere. As I browse through HardwareZone forum, I found a victim who was cheated of his money by a renovation company. He started a blog to complain about him n most importantly, to spread the words n increase consumer's awareness. It's an expensive experience but he handles it quite well. He mentioned that he earns less than $2000 per month, his wife is not working n he forked out more than $20000 to pay the renovation company. Pictures are taken to show that his "ideal" house is now in a mess. Do take a look at his lengthy blog n help spread the words.

15 May 2006

Today is Monday n I wanted to write a blog today because I am fustrated with something that happened at my workplace.

Nothing serious, just a complain by some unknown person about ME. This mysterious person told boss that I was not working correctly while I was onboard. I do not know how this person knows that I did not do my job correctly but my colleagues n I have a strong feeling about who this mysterious person is.

In actual fact, I sometimes did things incorrectly BUT there will be a reason to justify it. N even if I did something incorrectly, I will not do it in front of someone else.

My manager told me, even if I want to do things the easy way, do it tactfully. I just hope my manager knows that I been framed.

I must really be very careful with what I do n will not give the mysterious guy another chance to catch my painful leg.

10 May 2006

Today is Wednesday n I start work at 2pm. I only woke up at 12.45pm by a phone call although I set alarm to wake me up at 12pm. It was from the shop where I bought an Acer laptop for my colleague. There was some problem with the set we ordered on last Saturday n they required us to pay additional $40. I was not in the position to make the decision so I called my colleague. He was angry n insisted not to pay. I was caught in between, so I gave him the telephone number n told him to talk to the salesperson. In the end, the boss of the shop resolved the problem by absorbing $20 n my colleague agreed unwillingly. The laptop could only be collected on Friday instead of today. I hated to help this colleague of mine but he always ask me for help. So I started to reject him when he ask for my help. Anyway, I am busy with some many other things n manager just gave me another task to do when another colleague, Fel goes on holiday for 10 days. Help him, help her, but who help me...?

There was little time for me to eat lunch so I skipped lunch today. Reached office at 2.05pm but it's okay.

Worked n worked until I did not noticed it was time to go home but before that, I got to send an oil sample for testing again before going home. This time, my manager suddenly asked if I go SGS which is at Ayer Rajah Cresent, is it convenient for me. After so many times of delivery, now then he asked. I told him it's not convenient but it's okay. He added that all the rest leave in East side, so if they go, it's more inconvenient.

Reached home, brought my gal out for dinner, bath, taught her spelling n it's time to sleep... perhaps not, it's time for MapleStory. :)

09 May 2006

Today is Tuesday n yes, I been busy again. Busy with all the work hand over by a colleague who quit to settle some family problems. N I just know that she had flown off to USA to settle it. I wonder what could be the problem? She wanted to apply 2 months no pay leave but boss asked her to resign first, 2 months later then see if still need her. My guess is, no, boss will not hire her again because he has someone in mind for the post of programmer but it's not me.

Then an admin manager was sent to another company for attachment or something like that because he said he might be coming back a year later. So meanwhile, I got to take over the Cisco security system n the computer matters. I already tried not to be too involved in it but he still pass the duties to me. N he said got a big project which is to replace about 20 computers in the company but he got no time to kick off. He took half a day to hand over all the things to me, I do not think it's enough but will keep in contact to ask him more.

Then recently so so tired because a lot of ships to check but I guess it's good for the business n for the company. I cannot complain too much as boss n manager do not like to hear. So just accept it quietly n willingly.

Today my friend Tom said he want to buy N3230, so I suggested to him that he can buy my N3230. But after much considerations, I think better not because I am aiming to buy SE K750i which costs about $380 for 2nd hand. N I told him that I am selling my N3230 at $280. So I got to top up another $100 for the SE K750i which I do not want to. I intend to buy a BT headset which costs about $80 so that I can answer phone calls while riding bike. Will go down to SLS to take a look.

01 May 2006

Today is Monday n a public holiday, Labour Day. But as usual, I do not get to enjoy my holidays.

At 9.30am, I left home to my new colleague's house, Robin to take his car to Malaysia. Not to play but to work. Reached his house at 10am, PTP at 10.45am, pier at 11.10am n reached our company barge at 11.50am. But it delayed until 1.05pm, left the ship n went back onshore at about 1.50pm.

I was so hot n tired because the previous night slept at 4am plus. Had to wait for phone calls as there were changes to the ship timing n because the Robin is understudying me, so I let him coordinate with the necessary people. But still, I could not go to sleep n let him handle all these things, so I got to make sure he is doing the job right.

So far, the only complain about him is that, he is not so responsive. Whenever I give him instructions n ask him to call me when he has the updates. I would only receive the updates hours after. I think he has offended our operation manager by asking unnecessary questions. I just hope he can pass through the probation although I do not wish he can. :)

Reached home at about 4.30pm, went to bath, checked email, played MapleStory for a while n went to take a nap before dinner time. After dinner, watched SuperBand, a very nice Band competition. For more info, go to www.superband.com.sg

After washing the plates, mopping the floor, teaching our gal spelling n music, coaxing her to sleep, it was my turn to sleep...
So tired...