21 December 2006

2006 is soon coming to an end, let's await for new 2007 to come and hope for better things to happen.

yesterday started my job as programmer, not in a new company, just added more things to me. but i will take the opportunity to learn and see if i can make it as a programmer. was told to learn as much as possible within 2 weeks and go on solo. need to learn a lot but only nick is actively teaching me although his attitude was not so good yesterday. he said how come i cannot remember things when we already discussed and went through the program. haiz... i think my memory not so good as stated before, wonder if i can make it. there's another colleague also learning to be programmer but he don't seems to be learning at all.

yesterday some contractors came and removed most office tables, chairs and partitions. do not have an idea why and where it is moved to but heard moving to new office next year march. do not like the new office location but no choice if i want to stay in this trade.

these few days raining a lot, so sian to ride bike in the rain but some of us might feel this hitting them harder like those despatch, delivery, salesman, etc. and since i am programmer-to-be, i might not have to go onboard anymore. but my dear will suffer because the phone rang a few times yesterday and disturbed her sleep. no perfect job in this world, just have to think of ways to reduce the job discomfort.

since it was raining so badly, some florists along thomson road were affected. i ordered flowers for my dear from this particular company because christmas is coming, wanted to give a surprise to her. but just received a call yesterday saying that they are one of those who got affected by the heavy rainfall. so told me either refund or change date. i asked for refund and order flowers from another company, luckily managed to make it in time to send to my dear.

yesterday noticed COE dropped price. called xavier during lunchtime and asked him the price of kelissa now. he said super cheap if i buy weekend car, only $15000+ and monthly $170+ for 10 years. cheaper than some bikes and am considering...

so many things happened these 2 days.

15 December 2006

today i was told that i will learn to be a programmer and together with robin, we will take on the challenge. did not expect both of us will be programmer together, was expecting that only i was selected. but i think this arrangement is better, at least robin will not feel left out if only i was chosen. i also felt lucky that i was not left out, deep in me, i was not confident that i was selected. lack of confidence? you can say that.

on last monday, went to a company to interview for a financial advisor job. recommended by my friend, i spoke to his managers. both the managers are nice guy and they knew me because we met before at their previous company. after some questions, they told me 2 findings about me:
1. i do not know what i want, there's no motivation.
2. i am lack of confidence.

i told them they were right and i have little control of what is happening to me. these are the most difficult days of my life, i am making important decisions that might affect my future if i step a wrong move. that's why i had to consider every factor, many do not understand, i do not know who to tell and confide to. i feel stressed like a child without aim, without future, without thoughts, without soul.

but since my manager wanted me to learn to be a programmer, i will do my best to learn and see if this road is for me. i am now more willing to give up my dreams and learn something that can generate more income for the family.

my friend, nick is quiting from the company, most likely this is the reason why we were selected to be programmers.

called an ex-colleague and shared with him this good news. but seems like i should not have called him. after talking about my situation, he told me i looked weird when i stood behind him during the wedding dinner yesterday. and the girl beside him also seems freak out, i did not do anything, just stand behind for a while and they thinks i looked weird? fine with me if this is what he thinks of me. that's no reason why i stood behind, maybe just wanted to looked more sociable and join in the conversation.

enough of this nonsense, hoping for a better tomorrow.

06 December 2006 - Boring

no money for this christmas, so sian. how i wish i can be earning much more than now and so i can afford more things for my dear to buy clothes, go holidays, etc. when will i not worry about money? when can i let my dear stop working? when can i afford to buy a car to bring my family around? when can i help my in-laws to be financially stable and my bro-in-law to further studies after his poly? how can i help my mother to be free from father?

all the above needs money so as to be accomplished. got a few concerned friends are helping me find a better job but what is a better job to me? should i follow my dreams and find an IT job or just work for money and forget about dreams? if i do not know what i want, how do i know what job to find? i am always so flicker-minded, i think i never going to achieve what i want. i been looking for a wide varieties of jobs, from returning back to my previous employer to a job onboard cruise for a few months. and even work as car agent or financial advisor. but all do not seems to be an ideal job for me, after all, IT is my favourite area.

haiz... feel so hopeless and helpless.

01 December 2006

Christmas is around the corner but i am afraid mood is not right to celebrate. too many things happening around and seems like there's not much controls over it. last time i always think we can control over life but things happened recently that makes me think other wise. the road in front of me seems more and more dark, i am not sure where am i going. i want to find my own self, can anyone tell me how?

feeling down mostly because my dear's health is not that good recently. i think it's not convenient to spell it out but praying very hard that everything will be fine. life is so vulnerable.

i wonder when my luck will change to better, maybe it's really time to go fortune telling and find out in advance. i really need someone to guide me through this dark period of my life. feeling so helpless and lifeless. fortunately, my dear is by my side during these days, i really grow more and more attached to her, cannot imagine the days without her.

22 November 2006 - Sian

today morning got a meeting but i was not involved. before the meeting, heard that it's going to be a scolding session. and true enough, the operation manager and programmers got scolding from boss and marketing manager. and out of surprise, my name was mentioned in the meeting. the marketing manager complained that i was doing nothing and it is true. i really got nothing much to do, my main job is to do spot checks on barges but now only left with 1 barge to check with 2 checkers. i do not know what's wrong with their brains, last time got 9 barges to check and so busy but no one said we busy, good work. now left with 1 barge, of course nothing to do and sit around office do nothing. i think next time got to go check everyday and waste time onboard.

when i was complaining to my dear on msn, realised she got scolding from agents n colleague due to some mistakes NOT MADE by her. she felt so sad and i felt sad for her too. these FUCKERS think they can push people around, wait till we climb higher or earn more than them, then i shall make them pay for bullying my dear. everyone is just making a living and working for others, so why make life difficult for us?

but a happy news today, I completed the part 1 of Fireworks self-learning program, still got a long way to go to complete all the programs but i am 1 step closer. it's hard to set aside time to self-study because i cannot do it openly in office and i got little time at home to do so. but i am sure, with perseverence, i WILL SUCCEED!

btw, today my mother came to our house and cook for us. but when we were chatting after dinner, i think i asked a wrong question, "when father coming back?" that trigger her anger and started talking bad things about father. then she told me my grandmother died partly because of my father. my mother wanted grandmother to stay with them but due to some reason, she did not fetch her over. this is the part which i do not understand what mother said, but anyway, she was angry with father. if my mother could fetch my grandmother over, then tragic will not happened. and my mother told me she was angry with my father that she do not want to visit my other grandmother. i was surprised to hear this and i thought mother was too busy to visit her.

10 November 2006 - Spiderman 3

i am going to watch spiderman 3. been a fan of spiderman for years, really glad that the producers decide to make it into a movie and took it to part 3. i wonder if there will be part 4 and so on. here's the trailer and i think you will like spiderman 3 as much as i do.

05 November 2006 - Mother Birthday

tonite we had dinner with mother, brother and serene (bro's gf). we went to hougang mall to eat at the Soup Restaurant or whatever it's called. we got 5 n a half person but ordered a 4 person package. btw that half person is our gal. quite full although it's only for 4 person and mother bought a cup of ice-cream for our gal to eat. she is really treating our gal very well, even gave her $10 when we were going home. it was really nice to have dinner together but someone is missing, my father. i wonder if our gal is remember how he looks like. my father is always busy "working" overseas and neglects the family and my mother. but i was quite disappointed with myself too because when i looked at mother, she seems quite lonely due to the fact that we moved too far away from her. come to think of it, if given a choice, i think we would want to choose to take up new flats at Farrer Park. it's nearer to our workplace, to mother's house, to grandma's house and most importantly, near to MRT station.

initially we did not buy anything for mother but dear insisted. so she walked away pretending to withdraw money and bought a bag for her. mother also bought something for our gal, as usual and our gal was delighted.

04 November 2006 - LOST

today wanted to borrow some books at the library for myself and for my gal. happily, she searched and took the books, getting ready to scan the books but then i realisd i do not have my ic with me. i think back and realised that i did not collect it back after the pool game on thursday. then sadly, my gal put back her books and walked out of the library. we took a cab home and i immediately sped down to the pool shop and search for my ic. sure enough, my ic was there and together there were some other ic there kept nicely. seems like i am not the only blur one. my dear told me i got to much things to think of, so always forget things recently.

i wonder how much memories one brain can hold. can we upgrade our memories to higher capacity like a phone or camera?

02 November 2006

met up with some good friends tonight for pool session at ang mo kio. when we reached ang mo kio, it was about 10pm which was not what we expected to meet. anyway, we start off immediately and played all the way until about 12.15am. xavier was the winner for the night, almost won all the matches and i think i did not win any. i am a bad player in all ball games like basketball, soccer and even pool. but i prefer pool over other ball games.

we told xavier to go home first ask he lives further. me and bren had the last game after xavier left and went home too. then had a chit-chat for a while before he return home too.

reached home, my dear still working on her project, so sat down with her and work till about 1.30am.

tired...

01 November 2006

recently playing a new game, 2142 Battlefield. it's really nice but too little maps, hoping more maps will come out soon. my computer can barely support this game so when too many players crowd one place, it will be slightly lag. and I also saw another game that day at Sim Lim Square, Assassin's Creed, waiting for the release soon.

i found this on Yahoo! website, quite interesting.

31 October 2006 - New Layout and Design

did you notice the layout and design different? i upgraded it to newer version and changed the layout. i think the new version is nicer and some features are better. still looking for some nice templates to replace these dull ones.

today morning, while going to office, nearly met with an accident twice within 10 secs on PIE. the first time, the stupid lorry cuts into my lane suddenly, it was close to me, but luckily did not hit me. then while i was still in shock, another lorry in front performed an E-brake and the lorry skidded. i responsed in time by turning my bike away. if i were closer and going a bit faster, i would not be here typing my blog. it's always so dangerous on the road and it is a blessing to reach home or office in one piece everyday.

my wife ever asked if i would allow our gal to ride bike when she grows up to appropriate age. i replied that i will forbid her from riding or even learning bike, but she insists, i have not choice. i do not want a situation when she hates me for forbidding this and that, in the end, she stop talking to me and i starting drifting away from her.

it is quite difficult nowadays to teach the younger ones, they are thinking differently from us and i do not blame her because i was once young too. we might find our young ones irritating and troublesome, like wise, our young ones will think that we are irritating and troublesome. there's always a gap between children and parents but we as parents must make sure this gap is not too big.

little thoughts for today and am glad i took some time to update my blog today.

30 October 2006 - Inspired

yesterday, channel 8 talks about a 26 years old young guy who graduated from SMU with a degree, did not follow what the others are going. the others which include his classmates, are following one another, having the same mindset which is to go through proper education and securing a proper and stable job.

he started a cake business with a partner and it all started with a simple birthday cake for his friend. he searched the net for recipes to bake an oreo cheese cake. with all the different recipes available online, he combined the recipes and create his own version of oreo chesse cake. the taste of his very first cake turns out to be good and it lights up his passion for cake baking.

soon he started trying different cakes and took orders from relatives and friends for christmas cakes. he claims to have taken in 30+ orders for that year's christmas which made him a busy man that festive season.

his business soon grow from 1 branch to 2 branches. within 2 years of operations. after watching this show, it really inspire me and pushed me forward because i really envy what he can do and what i cannot. i wanted to do some business and i have something in mind, just that now is the time to equip myself with the skills for the business.

hope by next year, i can be writing how my business is working out.

20 October 2006

today is friday and i took half day leave to meet someone from propnex. i wanted to meet him earlier, i wanted to chat with him more, i wanted him to help me. my wife said, he might be able to solve my problems and my worries.
his name is lim yong hock and he is a training & recruitment director. he is none other than my wife's boss.
i had wanted to join propnex as a fulltime agent. main motive is to earn more money. who do not love to have more money, but the problem is, are you capable to earn that money or are you just so weak that you can only work for others?
being able to earn what you deserve is really good but that also means if you do not work hard, no income. sounds fair, but not to those who do not work hard.
i must admit sometimes i am lazy but could it be my nature self or could it be my job nature that does not interest me. i usually liked a little pushing on the back to keep me going. and will i remain this way even when i am a property agent?
it's not easy to motivate oneself to go forward and work towards the goal. i always hear people saying that they are very determine to work hard and thus achieve the current status. but i believe, deep down, not all but most, do not have the determination to push themselves forward. some are just being lucky than the others. some worked extremely hard, earning just mere $500 per month, some merely talk and easily earn more than $10000 per month. when can i ever earn this amount of money? when can i obtain the abilities to achieve such high standards?
i always ask myself; am i lucky or am i unlucky?

14 October 2006 - Click

Just finished watching a movie "Click". It's a very nice show as what my friends and some website stated.

It talks about a workaholic architect, who has been overlooking his family in favor of his career, comes across a universal remote that allows him to perform TiVo-like functions on his life, such as pausing events or fast-forwarding over them. When the remote begins creating its own memory and choosing what to fast-forward over, the man sees how much of his personal life has passed him by and realizes the importance of spending more time with his family.

It is a very funny and touching story especially the part when his life passes by so quickly that he missed the growing of his children. He dislike his parents coming to his house for dinner and chooses to fast forward the part. And when he fast forward too much to 16 years later, many things happened like:
1. his father died naturally
2. his wife remarried to another guy
3. his son and daughter grew up
4. his son got married
5. his dog died but got another small dog which he does not like

and the worst part is, he cannot get rid of the remote as he wish. Near to the end, he died of heart attack but before he died, he wanted to tell his son that, nothing is more important than family.

Luckily, that was not the end. Eventually he went back to the past and he could start all over again. This changed his life and attitude. He cherished his family more than ever. Great show! Must buy and must watch.

07 October 2006 - First youtube video

This is the first time I upload a video on youtube.com but unfortunately or rather fortunately, it's not a video of myself. It's a video of our gal playing keyboard. I hope it works.

20 September 2006

Yesterday, I updated my resume at JobsDB and within 30 minutes, I received a call from someone asking if I want a job. Immediately I took a pen n paper and walked out of the office. I wanted to find out more and she too wanted to find out more about my previous job experience. Before the conversation was ended, she told me the workplace would be at SGH, working hours 9am to 6pm(5 days work week) and salary is merely $1650 with additional $50 for handphone bill. It was way too low from my current pay. So I told her I want to consider.

It is a good opportunity for me to step into the IT industry but the salary was way too low. I have to think carefully. Haiz...

14 September 2006

Today is Thursday and I just added a new item to my blog. Did you see it? It's just a few centimetres below the title. It's an anniversary counter, it shows we are 7 months, 1 week and 4 days away from our next anniversary.

Just now bought some apples and tomatoes from Cold Storage, tonight going to grind some healthy fruit juice for my dear dear. Recently, my dear dear very stress, so hopefully can make some juices for her to relieve her stress.

02 September 2006

Today is Saturday and I bought a 2 new things; 1 1GB Aigo mp3 player for my gal and 1 2nd Sony Ericsson K750i. I sold away my Nokia 3230 for $220 and am going to buy the K750i at $250 from a friend. This friend is upgrading to Sony Ericsson K800i. Finally going to change to my dream phone. :)
The new mp3 for my gal costs only $49 for 1GB disk space. It's consider quite cheap as compared to my wife's Creative mp3. Hers costs more than $100 for a 512MB disk space. But then again, hers is a branded one while my gal's one is not so. Just hope it's a reliable mp3. I think my gal likes it a lot.
We went to Comex with Bren, it was crowded as usual. We only took less than 1 hour to finish shopping. Bren did not like the crowd while I think it's normally if one wants to find some good bargains. Afterall, it's not everyday we got so big crowd.
Still waiting patiently for my SE K750i, latest should reach my hands by Monday.
Going to bath now and try out the new mp3.

31 August 2006

Today is Thursday and I know it's been long since I last blog... :)

My dear wife wants me to blog again, so I guess I had to take sometime off to update.

Today is also the start of Comex 2006, the so called BIGGEST IT and Electronics Fair. I am supposed to go with my friend on Saturday afternoon. Being the biggest IT Exhibition, it had to held at Expo which is a little out of the way. Although there's a lot of carparks there, it is still not enough for the big or shall I say, enormous crowd. Some of the things I want to look out for are:
1. Batteries or charger whichever is spoilt
2. IT Courses like Web Design or CCNA or MCSE (dun noe wat is it? GO GOOGLE FOR IT LAH!)
3. SD Card for my panasonic camera because now it's so dirt cheap (dun believe? GO EXPO N LOOK 4 URSELF!)

I been thinking what I want to do in future to earn more money, took me really some time to decide. Now my decision is to concentrade on my IT area. Learn as much as possible, so that my value increases. Find a fulltime IT job while joining my friend to do some IT Freelance. That is why I want to look for courses at the Comex. BUT eventually I might self study in order to save money. A web designing course could cost about $500 and CCNA could costs as cheap as $500 or as much as $3000 depending which school to go to.

In fact, I promised myself not to spend too much time unnecessarily and spend valuable time on studying. Need a lot to catch if I want to join my friend in the IT business. So I guess I shall end here and work hard for our future.

15 August 2006

Recently, there are 5 fireworks events in the city area, my wife and my gal likes fireworks a lot so I had to bring them to see at least 1 show. We missed the very first show which is on 5th Aug, then the second show on 9th Aug, Singapore National Day. So there was only left with 2 more shows, on the 11th and 12th Aug. Incidentally, I took leave on 11th Aug to go to Canberra Pri Sch, my gal's future Pri Sch. There was a balloting going on that day at Canberra Pri Sch and I took leave to witness the balloting. Lucky enough, my gal managed to got into this school. I was definitely happy, at least we do not need to worry anymore, for the time being. At the same time, I felt sad for those who did not got in. Why can't they open more vacancies to cater to all applicants, then everyone will be happy.

I think that day was really our lucky day because we managed to view the fireworks that night. The view was not very fantasic because we far away and we waited at the wrong place. When it was 9pm, most people who were sitting down waiting for the fireworks to appear in front of them, immediately stood up and rush to another place because the fireworks did not appear where they predicted to be. BUT still, we enjoyed ourselves. This is not the end of it. The next day, my wife got to attend her company retreat, so she was out since 8am. I took my gal to her music class at Yahama Music School at 3pm, then went to my colleague's house to service his computer for free. Luckily there was nothing much to service. By 6.30pm, we left the house and headed to Esplanade to view another fireworks. Crowds were even more than the day before. We went to different places to check if there's any parking lots left. We searched for 20 mins but still cannot find a place to park. Just then, we received a call from a colleague who asked if we want to go onboard and view the fireworks. We agreed immediately but then feared that my gal cannot go onboard because she did not bring her passport. We told that colleague our concern and off he went to ask around.

Soon we reached Marina South Pier still uncertain whether can my gal go onboard or not. About 30 mins before the show, we were told that my gal got no problem boarding the launch. So off we went and waited for the fireworks to go off at 9pm. We were all excited because this is the first time I view fireworks onboard. The same launch but it was a different feeling this time when I was onboard. After the fireworks, we went for supper at Zion road. After supper, we all went home and sleep... Tired day but a happy day.



Wanted to upload the video clip of the fireworks but www.youtube.com seems to have some problems now. So will try again later...


Tonite, I made a mistake, yet again. I really regretted doing it. I scolded my gal for misbehaving. She keeps asking for her mummy and even cried when she realised her mummy still not home at this hour(10.30pm). Initially I scolded her because I think that she always asked for her mummy. I told her mummy have to work so as to help support the financial needs. Then I also scolded her because she could not memorize her spelling properly.
But then when I think back, I realised I asked too much of her. She must have missed her mummy badly but I still blamed her and scolded her. And I should not scold her for not memorizing her spelling because this time, there were more words to memorize than before.
But it's too late, I already scolded her, I just hope she can forget about it tomorrow morning and I shall promise to treat her even better.
SORRY, RACHEL :(

29 July 2006

Today is Saturday and I spent some time cleaning the electrical fan. It's really dirty, even my hands were dirty when I took the parts down for washing.

You see it's so dirty above but it's so much cleaner below. I even injuried myself when cleaning the fan. One of the part dropped from my hand and hit my toe. But I think that luckily my toe saved the fan from breaking apart, if not I might have to spend money replacing it. Just a small cut and my gal offered me a handiplast to cover up my wound. How sweet!

03 July 2006

Today is Monday, first day of the week. I am typing this blog on my colleague's PC because I borrowed mine to my other colleague. It's hard to explain why his PC is temporarily taken away, so for the time being, he will use mine until his is back. Lots of unpleasant things had happened, I hope bad things passes and wish for good things to arrive soon. Last Friday, my wife bought a Voodoo Mini for me, our gal and herself.

My Voodoo Mini : 89757

My gal's : Professor X

My wife's : Master Wong

For more information, can check out here. I think 1 costs about $5.50.

The weather is so hot today that I got headache within 5 minutes after exposing to the hot sun. I drank a few cups of water but not use if the sun is this HOT!!!

27 June 2006

I wish today is not the last day I blog, I wished I can still blog n blog more often. Things are happening around me n I cannot control them. Things are changing n I cannot stop much. Things are so much different that I wish I can turn back time. Things just aren't what it used to be. I wish for something more n something less.
I wish...

14 June 2006 - Updates

Today is Wednesday. My mood is somehow coming back to normal maybe becos recently no more complains. Pure luck or just more careful after these things happened. Anyway, today went to lunch on my own because the programmers got lunch appointment with some other company's staffs. Then bought Almond bubble tea as I was not hungry. Went walking in the basement of Parkway Parade, I walked pass Four Leaves Bakery shop, so went in to buy 2 breads; 1 chocolate donut n 1 curry chicken bun. But after buying, still not hungry so I brought back to office to eat later. Maybe I had a late breakfast at 9.50am n lunch at 12pm is not enough time for me to digest.



Before I went back to office which is supposed to be 1pm, I went to MPH n see see look look. Do not know what to look for, slowly walked n came to pets section. Actually I was attracted there by this aunty. Not attracted by her beauty but her loud voice. She was on the phone but sitting down at the pet section. Although she saw me looking through the books there, she did not bother to stand up n give way for me. After about 2 mins, she hang up the phone. I thought she will stand up n leave, but she remain sitted n took out a piece of paper with 3 mobile numbers on it. She read the numbers, entered into her phone n started dialing again. It was another 3 mins of waiting. I did not want to ask her to move off because I do not want people to think that I know her, it makes people think I am as low class as her... :)

07 June 2006

Today is Wednesday n I have not been talking to my blog for quite some time. Partly is busy, partly it's because I do not feel like touching the computer n partly because I am still not in the mood. Too many things in my mind: confused, troubled, worried, tired n sick. As mentioned before, my memory is not so good recently, so with so many things happening in the office, think my memory is totally occupied by all these nonsenses.

Although no mood to update, I still like to make some effort to do so as a record for future reference n memory. It's nice to read back now n then to refresh my memory. But recently, all memories are bad memories n hopefully I learn from my mistakes n not to repeat it again.

Recently I have not been playing MapleStory, Pangya n SilkRoadOnline because it takes time n the mood is not right. In fact, I been refraining myself from playing too much so as to spend more time with my family. I would like to bring them out for a short holiday but it's hard to get things done because our girl got music lessons on Saturday. If we go overseas, most likely she will miss a lesson. So maybe a BBQ or a trip to the sentosa would be good enough. Nicky has been "jioing" (means inviting) me to Bangkok, Genting n Sentosa chalet but I have pushed away all invitations partly because we got no $$$. He likes to make quick decisions with short notice but I cannot make such an decision n I do not like making such a decision. So I had to push away his offers.

That's all I have to say for today n hope for a better tomorrow...

31 May 2006

Today is Wednesday n I am not updating my blog today because I feel happy n everything is back to normal. In fact, it's the opposite. The previous matter have not been settled n seems like there's a new rumour about my performance. Apparently, somone is talking behind my back, saying that I cannot find where the ships are located when I am tasked to go onboard. My colleague told me to ask properly in order to find the location of the ship n thus not wasting fuel n time.

He was referring to a job to a ship called Canter. Initially, the ship was supposed to be located at Eastern Bunkering Bravo or in short EBB. Then I called n asked if it's EBB, he said changed to EPA but it sounded like EBA. So I double confirm by asking if it's Eastern Bunkering Alpha, he said "YES!"

Then when I took the speedboat out to find Canter at EBA, I realised that the ship is not there. So I called again, n he kept saying EPA, EPA. I still could not make up what he said. Only at this moment, Canter's crew member, who were also onboard the speedboat, told me it's EPA. So the speedboat turned back n went to EPA.

The boatman immediately called Jason who was in charge of the boat to tell him I was informed wrongly about the location.

This incident has been a week ago n I thought nothing will happen. But I was wrong, someone apparently spread this around n the blame is on me. I am very very sad. I do not know what to do. Someone seems to be watching me from behind n waiting for me to do something wrong now n then.

Sad...

26 May 2006 - Moody

Recently, I was feeling very moody. Do not feeling like going to office, I do not know why. Could be because I am afraid to see boss. Haiz... never feeling this since I worked here for more than 6 months.
Today attended a 1 day course at Bestway building, by right after this course, I can be a bunker clerk but I am not working as a bunker clerk.
Do not know what to write today because my feeling too mixed up liao. Feel empty, stupid, lousy, angry, tired n boring. Empty because I do not know what to do with so many things happening in the office. Stupid n lousy because I am now 27, with a wife of more than 6 years n a 5 years old daughter, but I still earning that little money n no car. Angry because I still feel betrayed by someone who said I m not working properly. Tired n boring because I feel like taking a break n I know so do my wife. Oops... :)

Haiz... I think I should stop here n resume when I gets my feeling correct.

18 May 2006 - Bad people are everywhere

Today is Thursday n lots of unpleasant things are happening in my office. I have yet spoke to my boss because my boss seems unhappy recently. I have afraid to be in between the crossfire though I m near to the crossfire (read my previous post for more info). I m getting more n more afraid as 2 colleagues already got fired because they did not do their job properly but they were caught red-handed. N 1 of the colleagues worked in the company for many years. My other colleagues had tried to help him talk to boss n allow him to stay but boss decision was unclear. I just hope he gets a 2nd chance because he is quite a nice guy among other colleagues.

Sometimes, I really regretted leaving my previous company because it's so safe n comfortable there. But the very bad point is, my salary are pretty low n standard. Comfortable can be dangerous because it causes one to slack n deteriorate in performance. I know because I was in that state for a few months before I left the company.

The current company is really full of bad people, spies n 小人。 I always have to watch my back for any back stabber. Isn't this world full of surprises?

N bad people are everywhere. As I browse through HardwareZone forum, I found a victim who was cheated of his money by a renovation company. He started a blog to complain about him n most importantly, to spread the words n increase consumer's awareness. It's an expensive experience but he handles it quite well. He mentioned that he earns less than $2000 per month, his wife is not working n he forked out more than $20000 to pay the renovation company. Pictures are taken to show that his "ideal" house is now in a mess. Do take a look at his lengthy blog n help spread the words.

15 May 2006

Today is Monday n I wanted to write a blog today because I am fustrated with something that happened at my workplace.

Nothing serious, just a complain by some unknown person about ME. This mysterious person told boss that I was not working correctly while I was onboard. I do not know how this person knows that I did not do my job correctly but my colleagues n I have a strong feeling about who this mysterious person is.

In actual fact, I sometimes did things incorrectly BUT there will be a reason to justify it. N even if I did something incorrectly, I will not do it in front of someone else.

My manager told me, even if I want to do things the easy way, do it tactfully. I just hope my manager knows that I been framed.

I must really be very careful with what I do n will not give the mysterious guy another chance to catch my painful leg.

10 May 2006

Today is Wednesday n I start work at 2pm. I only woke up at 12.45pm by a phone call although I set alarm to wake me up at 12pm. It was from the shop where I bought an Acer laptop for my colleague. There was some problem with the set we ordered on last Saturday n they required us to pay additional $40. I was not in the position to make the decision so I called my colleague. He was angry n insisted not to pay. I was caught in between, so I gave him the telephone number n told him to talk to the salesperson. In the end, the boss of the shop resolved the problem by absorbing $20 n my colleague agreed unwillingly. The laptop could only be collected on Friday instead of today. I hated to help this colleague of mine but he always ask me for help. So I started to reject him when he ask for my help. Anyway, I am busy with some many other things n manager just gave me another task to do when another colleague, Fel goes on holiday for 10 days. Help him, help her, but who help me...?

There was little time for me to eat lunch so I skipped lunch today. Reached office at 2.05pm but it's okay.

Worked n worked until I did not noticed it was time to go home but before that, I got to send an oil sample for testing again before going home. This time, my manager suddenly asked if I go SGS which is at Ayer Rajah Cresent, is it convenient for me. After so many times of delivery, now then he asked. I told him it's not convenient but it's okay. He added that all the rest leave in East side, so if they go, it's more inconvenient.

Reached home, brought my gal out for dinner, bath, taught her spelling n it's time to sleep... perhaps not, it's time for MapleStory. :)

09 May 2006

Today is Tuesday n yes, I been busy again. Busy with all the work hand over by a colleague who quit to settle some family problems. N I just know that she had flown off to USA to settle it. I wonder what could be the problem? She wanted to apply 2 months no pay leave but boss asked her to resign first, 2 months later then see if still need her. My guess is, no, boss will not hire her again because he has someone in mind for the post of programmer but it's not me.

Then an admin manager was sent to another company for attachment or something like that because he said he might be coming back a year later. So meanwhile, I got to take over the Cisco security system n the computer matters. I already tried not to be too involved in it but he still pass the duties to me. N he said got a big project which is to replace about 20 computers in the company but he got no time to kick off. He took half a day to hand over all the things to me, I do not think it's enough but will keep in contact to ask him more.

Then recently so so tired because a lot of ships to check but I guess it's good for the business n for the company. I cannot complain too much as boss n manager do not like to hear. So just accept it quietly n willingly.

Today my friend Tom said he want to buy N3230, so I suggested to him that he can buy my N3230. But after much considerations, I think better not because I am aiming to buy SE K750i which costs about $380 for 2nd hand. N I told him that I am selling my N3230 at $280. So I got to top up another $100 for the SE K750i which I do not want to. I intend to buy a BT headset which costs about $80 so that I can answer phone calls while riding bike. Will go down to SLS to take a look.

01 May 2006

Today is Monday n a public holiday, Labour Day. But as usual, I do not get to enjoy my holidays.

At 9.30am, I left home to my new colleague's house, Robin to take his car to Malaysia. Not to play but to work. Reached his house at 10am, PTP at 10.45am, pier at 11.10am n reached our company barge at 11.50am. But it delayed until 1.05pm, left the ship n went back onshore at about 1.50pm.

I was so hot n tired because the previous night slept at 4am plus. Had to wait for phone calls as there were changes to the ship timing n because the Robin is understudying me, so I let him coordinate with the necessary people. But still, I could not go to sleep n let him handle all these things, so I got to make sure he is doing the job right.

So far, the only complain about him is that, he is not so responsive. Whenever I give him instructions n ask him to call me when he has the updates. I would only receive the updates hours after. I think he has offended our operation manager by asking unnecessary questions. I just hope he can pass through the probation although I do not wish he can. :)

Reached home at about 4.30pm, went to bath, checked email, played MapleStory for a while n went to take a nap before dinner time. After dinner, watched SuperBand, a very nice Band competition. For more info, go to www.superband.com.sg

After washing the plates, mopping the floor, teaching our gal spelling n music, coaxing her to sleep, it was my turn to sleep...
So tired...

24 April 2006

Tonight, we have got 2 visitors. 1 is my wife's friend n the other is her dog, a Silky Terrier. A really small n cute dog. It's was called Kiki. Kiki explored our whole house n likes to bite on small things found on the floor. She liked my gal a lot n chased her to play. When my gal wanted to sleep, Kiki tried to climb on her n my gal froze there fearing of being bite. N according to my gal, she climbed up to look at my daughter sleep.

Kiki was quite slow n could not catch the ball when we threw to her. My wife's friend brought her dog because she is going to home breed the dog n give it to us next year. So she is showing us the parent of our future dog.
According to her, maintenance of this dog is low but I want to make sure it's true n will ask around for more information.

It was no long before I had to leave home n go onboard, as usual. So I could not spend more time with Kiki. Really like her a lot. I am always fearful of dogs as they bites, but Kiki was okay.

23 April 2006

Today is Sunday. I went onboard this morning until about 9.20am. Went to Pek Kio Market to buy the famous prawn noodle for my wife n delicious carrot cake for our gal. Waited about 10 mins before I get the chance to buy the carrot cake. When on my way home, I stopped by to buy my favourite, Lotus Seed Bun.

I have not went to visit my grandfather n grandmother for a few weeks, so I was hoping today can go visit him especially after I dreamed the death of my grandfather. Really hoped he is doing okay n not hide any thing like health problem from us.

When we reached the place, then we realised that there was no lunch prepared for us. No one actually bothers to inform us, how sad, but maybe they forgotten like how I always forgot to tell them... :)

My grandfather offers to drive us to Jalan Besar market to take our lunch. Ordered claypot chicken rice n 1 small portion of black chicken soup. As we were not very hungry, we could not finish the rice. So my grandfather packet it back home for dinner.

The weather for today is very bad. 1 moment it was raining heavily, the next, it was burning hot. This could make one sick easily.

After lunch, went to Novena Square to buy some goceries n went home to rest.

I went to sleep when reached home because did not sleep well the previous night when waiting to go onboard. My wife was tired but she did not sleep n stayed up to prepare dinner. She is always looking up the receipe to search for better food to cook n I know it's tough for her. It's not easy to cook a meal n many gals do not know how to. I am really glad she could cook decent meals for us. But sometimes, I also cook some meals for them n I can only cook wastern food.

Tonight, there's no order to go onboard so I spent the night watching television. There are nice programs on Sunday night on Channel U, Channel 8 n Channel 5. So I got to switch between them once in a while. Then at about 9.30pm, my gal wanted to sleep n asked if I want to play Pangya. Had 2 games with my wife n her friend before sleeping...

22 April 2006

Today is Saturday n I am not working while my wife is. But today too tired to wake up n send her to work. So gave her money to take cab but it's already 8.30am when she left home n she got to reach office by 9am. I guess she will be late.

I cannot remember what time I woke up but I tidied up the house when I woke up. Until about 1pm, told my gal to go n bath, change clothes n get ready to go to Sun Plaza to attend music class. We reached Sun Plaza at 2pm, took lunch. Then I went to search for abacus for my gal because she is learning that in school. Cannot not find a suitable one n went home. I fell asleep when I reached home. At 4.20pm, they came home n I was awaken by the door bell.

At night, we went to a BBQ gathering among my ex-colleagues. I borrowed Nicky's Hyundai Getz n drove my family to Pasir Ris Costa Sand Chalet. Only a few came; Vincent, Eddie n wife, Giorson, Charles n wife. I guess the location is not so appealing as to attract more people to come. Had a great time with them n as usual, Vincent got drunk because someone brought red wine to drunk him. Then I used Nicky's car to send Vincent home but did not know exactly where he stayed. I think he was way too drunk to tell, so I dropped him opposite Blk 85 Bedok North. Then sent my family home n went back to the chalet to return the car. By the time I reached the chalet, all except for 2 friends had left the chalet. Chatted with Nicky a while n left the place too.

This morning, I woke up in fear because I dreamt that my grandfather died n saw his funeral. I was very sad in the dream n even when I was awake, I feared that my dream might come true. He is a very nice person to many but many people do not appreciate him like my own brother, my father n my uncle. He is very acknowledge, he can repair fans, electric flask, television, bicycle, motorbike, etc. He is even good in capentry stuffs like drilling or fixing a hard wire between 2 walls for hanging clothes.

Since when we were young, he adores me n my brother a lot. Our family used to live in Ang Mo Kio Ave 10 but we moved to current place after I finished Secondary 2. The current place is nearer to my grandfather, it's only less than 10 mins walk. My grandfather would frequently comes over n buy some nice titbits for us. He treats us fairly n we do not need to share the titbits as he always buy each of us individual titbits. He also adores my wife n our gal, sometimes he would give some pocket money to our gal to buy sweats. Nowadays he been working very hard to earn a living because my uncle is not treating him well. Anyway, I just hope one day, I would be earning twice as much as now, then I can take care of him like how he took care of us.

21 April 2006

Today stomach not feeling well, so I did not send my wife to work. After sending her to MRT, I went home n fell asleep. Woke up at 10.30am but still want to sleep. Went to bathe, changed n went to work. Sms Nicky n asked if he want to sleep or makan, he replied that he want to sleep n told me to buy some fruits for him. Went to Marine Parade to eat Yong Tau Hu with Yam rice, my favourite food. I wanted to eat it with noodle but I always get my shirt stained if I order dry noodles with chilli.

Then went shopping for a while to see what to things to buy although I do not have any ideas what I want to buy. Maybe memory no good, so always forget what to buy, so shop around to refresh my memory. Walked 10 mins but still don't know what to buy. So sat down n took a rest while waiting for the time to pass. It's 12.50pm but I do not feel like going to office too early. By right, I can reach office at 2pm but normally go back early to finish the paper works.

At about 3pm, my manager told me to go to MS Pier, get an oil sample n take it to SGS for testing, after that can go home from there.

When going home, my manager told me to go to PTP to check a ship there but still not sure of the timing yet. Then when I reached home at 6.15pm, realised that that ship stop pump at about 8pm. Although I have 1 hr n 45 mins to go in, it is not enough as motorbike lane will be super jam on Friday night. So I got to drive a car in to avoid the big JAM, managed to get Tom's car to go in. Lucky me but not so because there's still a little jam on car lane. Then my luck seems to run out fast as whichever lane or counter I chose is problematic n was held back at least for 10 mins. Normally, Singapore checkpoint clears a car in under 3 mins. So overall, I spent 30 mins at Singapore checkpoint.

When reached Malaysia checkpoint, I also went to the wrong counter n got to wait for another 5 mins. As Malaysia checkpoint is not as crowded as Singapore checkpoint, so I decided to
reverse the car n go to another counter. I did it with a little hesitation n luckily I did it eventually as after I was cleared at another counter, that stupid car was still not cleared yet.

To cut things short, I managed to reach my ship at 8.20pm but luckily the ship is only leaving at 9pm. I only go up to the ship for a short 10 mins but I panic n rushed for more than 1 hr. That's my job so I got no choice.

Reached back Sembawang at about 10pm, returned the car, went to buy dinner n went home.

When reached home, my wife's friend, Pearlyn was at our house chating. I joined in the chatting for a while but I was too tired to continue long. So I went to sleep at about 12am.

A very long n tiring day...

20 April 2006

Today morning went back to PropNex to look for my ex-manager, Jason. Spent some time talking with him n update myself but main motive is to get my commission from him. So far, I only closed 1 case after joining as part-time property agent for more than 6 months. Being a Property Agent takes up lot of time, being a part-time agent takes up more time. So it's not easy if you ask me, then the manager must also be acknowledge n helpful. My ex-manager has since transferred me to his manager because he said he is not good enough to teach. Hopefully I can gain more experience, change to a Programmer job n then I should start property part-time again.

That day when I was at Marina South Pier, I went to third floor to take a look n saw a beautiful scenary. Below are the photos to share:

19 April 2006

As usual, woke up at 6am but today got to send my wife to work by 7.45am must reach her office. Woke her up at 6am, still sleeping. 6.15am, still don't want to wake up. Finally at 6.30am, then she unwillingly woke up, walked to the bath.

By the time we leave home, it's about 7.25am n so we got about 20 mins to reach Toa Payoh which I think it's impossible. Normally I take at least 30 mins to reach Toa Payoh but I still try my best n went the fastest as I could. Still, we reached Toa Payoh at 7.55am, 10 mins late, not so bad.

Then I went to park my bike downstair n went for breakfast nearby. Searched for my favourite breakfast, Bee Hoon Noodle with egg, preferable chicken wing but I chose fried fish stick instead n a cup of hot milk tea. :)
I could eat this almost everyday since there's nothing much to eat in the morning so this is considered quite a light meal n affordable. Although porridge might be a better choice, porridge might costs more than a plate of Bee Hoon Noodle.

Actually, the hawker near to Parkway Parade sells nice Bee Hoon Noodle but the staff there very "kuai lan", so I told myself not to patronise them again. Whenever Nicky wants to buy Bee Hoon Noodle, I would go other stores to buy other food. If I really wants to eat Bee Hoon Noodle, I would look for other places to buy. I can go to Chong Pang, Toa Payoh or Katong to buy. But all except for Chong Pang store, are not as good as the Marine Parade store. I have not ever taken such steps to avoid a store, no matter how bad I was treated. This in fact, is my first time doing it n I do feel happy.

There's always bad attitude people around us but if we always give in to them, they will keep bullying us.

Did I mentioned that my luck this year is not very good? Yes, I am unlucky this year, different from what was mentioned in the forecastl for this year. Unlike my wife n Nicky, they seems to be having a better year than me despite that we are all Goats. Maybe like my wife said, I do not believe in Spirits n Gods, n so God do not bless me for the year. We always have disagreements when it comes to these Spirital things, I better not mention more, because religious is a very sensitive topic. I was also adviced not to attend any wedding n funeral this year, so I had to push away a wedding invitation of my ex-colleague, Liew. I just hope he understands why I cannot go. As much as possible n if my wallet permits, I would like to attend. I think it's sort of a gathering among old friends or colleagues. Liew is not a very good friend of mine but we got some common topics to talk about while I was still in CSIT. There are more good people in CSIT than there are in my current company n I do miss those days. People in CSIT especially my department, are friendly n easy-going. Perhaps our age gaps are not very big n even the old timers there are friendly. My current company has lots of "小人“, n I got to be on high alert every single day. It's tiring to be on the alert n watch what I say because words spread like fire in this company. U never know what words will reach boss' ears.

Some changes are going on in the company, but I just hope good changes happen n bad changes goes away.

I am happy that I could remember so much n could blog so much today. I still wish for a better tomorrow.

18 April 2006

I forgot what I did today, I guessed nothing big n important happened. But I realised that my memories fails me these recent years, could be due to age or maybe memory full just like a memory card. Sometimes needs to clear some memories or even format the memory card to store more new things. But too bad, human's memory cannot be erased at our own will.

But some memories are good n sweet while some are bad n bitter. It's always good to deliberately forget those bad memories n keep those good ones. But then, I remembered hearing a sentence from a Chinese drama series, "If there's no bad people, how to we know you are good people?" So I rephrase it, "If there's no bad memories, how do I know there's good memories?"

I hope I can remember more things whether it's good or bad, n write it down here so in case I lost my memories or whatever, I can read back n RECALL.

Going to sleep early today because I am not going onboard n my eyes are closing...

17 April 2006

This morning, I went to LTA to do ownership transfer n renew my roadtax for my motorbike at about 9am. There was no queue at that time unlike my friend who told me he waited an hour for his number to be called. When everything was processed within 10 mins, then the counter staff realised that the NETS system is down n I have to use cash. So no choice but to cancel my transaction n I have to leave the place to withdraw cash. It's costs $37 for the ownership transfer n $80 for a year's roadtax. It's not very expensive but I been spending money on this bike for past few months, quite sick of paying n paying especially for a six years old bike like this. But if u ask me not to ride bike, it's quite difficult for me especially of the nature of my job n the location of our new flat at Sembawang Drive.

There are too many things to consider if I give out riding bike:
1. I cannot fetch my gal in time as most of the time my wife cannot leave office on time.
2. The fact that my office is at Parkway Parade, at least a half an hour ride from home.
3. If I take public transport, it's about 5 mins walk from home to bus-stop, 15 mins to Sembawang MRT, 20 mins to Ang Mo Kio MRT, 5 mins walk to bus-stop, 55 mins to Parkway Parade n 10 mins walk to office. Total? 1 hr 50 mins.
4. I have to go onboard anytime (like 12am, 2am, 5am) n not much taxis comes inside to my house, so I got to call cab to Marina South Pier. Likewise, MS Pier is secluded n call cab is a must unless there are people coming into MS Pier. Although company allows me to claim taxi fare, it's not the money, it's the time needed to wait. I got to wait for taxi, wait for launch, wait for bunker clerk to call me, wait for stop pump. All these are time which money cannot buy back n it's wasted if I keep waiting for others to control my time.
5. There are quite a few more points to write but now I got to work first. Will update when I got the time later.

During lunchtime, my colleague, Nick told me I could be a Programmer by chance. In fact, he already told me a few days ago. But we kept bringing it out to discuss n state out all the possibilities. It is because our colleague, CY is taking 2 months unpaid leave to settle some family problems, so we anticipate that I might be posted to be a Programmer. A Programmer, A.K.A. Organiser or Planner, is to plan our barges to bunker for our customers in Singapore waters or at PTP Malaysia. But I am quite comfortable with current arrangements n job, so if I am really chosen to be Programmer, I guess I got no choice.

Then Nicky was telling me that I might not be suitable to be a Programmer n he said he too. I do not know if I am suitable or not but I know I must earn more $$$. In Singapore, if everyone choose a job which he likes or suits, I wondered if anyone will sweep the floor of Singapore, clear the rubbish daily, water the plants. I got no good qualifications, so I guess I can only follow the wind n turn. N wish for a better tomorrow.

Did I blogged too much today? I guess when there's a target, one can just keep blogging n blogging, until one reaches the end, then it's time to move on...

14 April 2006

It was almost a long weekend if I am not going to work tomorrow. Took leave on 13th April supposingly to bring my wife go out walk walk n relax her mind but it was raining almost the whole day. We could not wait n ride in the rain in order to catch some food before my wife's gastric relapses. But not only the rain spoilt the day but my wife is also facing some problems with her work. But things work out fine, maybe because she bought a gift for her colleague as an apology for being scolded by their boss.

Never been to the new revamped Marina South shopping centre so we went there after breakfast. It was really nicely done up but the nicest thing is that, motorbikes still do not need to pay for parking. Haha...

Then I bought a HWZ magazine because got free Sanyo AAA rechargable batteries which costs more than the magazine. N my wife bought a gift for 2 of her colleagues.

After shopping at Marina South, we went to Toa Payoh to pass the gift to my wife's colleague. Then it's time for shopping again, but this time for food. That night, I decided to cook but I can only cook western food, so we had beef bolognaise, sausage omelette n pizza for dinner. Not very delicious as my gal did not finished it. I did not enjoy it much too, still preferred the spaghetti with cream sauce.

Today, 14th April 2006 is a Good Friday which is also a holiday. It was also a rainy day so we stayed at home the whole day packing n throwing away our gal's toys. About 80% of the toys were thrown away, now the room looks more spacious n brighter. Soon, I will throw some things in our study room too. It's a pity we have to throw things away as some still looks fine n it costs money to buy. We were hoping to keep most for our second child.

At night, i was supposed to go onboard a barge in Port of Tanjong Palapas(PTP) in Malaysia but last minute my manager told me not to go as it was raining heavily n it was too dark for me to go in. He replaced that barge with another barge in Singapore, but was too called off. My wife n I were happy n decided to go to a Pasar Malam in Khatib after dinner.

After dinner, we were too tired to go out but our gal was sad when she heard that. So we decided to bring her downstair to play at the playground. The lights were out downstair so we brought her to nearby temple to pray. It was the first time my wife goes there to pray. She was having nightmares n so we prayed for peace. We had no loose money for donation to the temple so I called X to ask if it's okay to donate Malaysia ringgit. But I asked him, I told him I was serious about this, but he still laughed at me.

After praying for a peace of mind, we headed home for a Pangya game while our gal sleep. Pangya is a online golf game with cute characters to play with. Check it out here

10 April 2006

Been busy recently that I forgot what I did recent so unable to update accordingly. So many ships to check until I so tired. Luckily today no ships to check, if not I will be so tired that I would not want to wake up tomorrow morning.

This afternoon renewed my motorbike insurance at $205. Heart pain because really spent a lot on this motorbike these few months, still have not renew my roadtax n do a ownership transfer for the bike which costs about $117.


My day got worst when I realised that my rain shoes are missing after leaving them on my bike for drying. I have done this quite a few times but were never stolen. But it's partly my fault to trust that Singaporeans are good people n will not touch my dirty n smelly rain shoes.

So I guess I have to buy another pair tomorrow. It's a waste of money but I need it for my daily travelling use.

Having a little headache, could be an after effect from swimming during noon time yesterday. Brought my wife n gal to swimming at Yio Chu Kang swimming pool. My wife did not swim, only myself n my gal swam. She really improved her swimming skills a lot after sending her to swimming classes n she was showing off during the 3 hours of swimming. I suffered from a mild sun burn on the face, shoulder n back.

At night, we tried to complete the zig saw puzzle that was bought few months ago. But after about 1 hour, we only completed half of it. Will try again tomorrow. It's fun doing things as a family but my gal kept talking n complaining that she do not know what to do. Haha.

That's all...

04 April 2006

It's been quite sometime since I last updated my blog. I have been very busy so can hardly spend time here to update. Mostly busy with work as some might notice, I write my blogs in the daytime during office hour. Although writing blog do not takes up much time, thinking what to write does.

Anyway, I was busy with report writing requested by my Boss. In fact, the report in not finished at this point of time but it's 98% done, just need some touching up n reorganizing. N since the time now is 11.48am, I am giving myself a little break to write my blog.

My wife was asking, how come I have to do reports when I am only a Checker. Checker checks ships, not do reports. N not only do I do reports, I also
1. Run (official n personal) errands
2. Fix computers
3. Assists in purchasing laptops, computer spare parts
4. Learn to use the copier machine
5. Align excel spreadsheets for manager (as he is not good in computers)
6. Drive colleague to Clifford Pier
7. Wait in the car while my colleagues go to other people's office to get money
8. Advise people on which phone to buy
9. Help colleague to look after things in the cafe while they go back office for meeting


Lots of things happened during this period when I was not blogging like
1. bike spoilt n spent $93.
2. then spoilt again on the very same day when I collected the bike
3. realised my leather shoe got a hole on the sole
4. went to pray in the temple near our house for the first time
5. also brought my little gal to pray but did not offer incense
6. took my gal for a ride from motordiam back to home for the first time as I am not comfortable to leave her at home alone
7. went to new Marine South Pier. Nice place but location no good (pics are below)
8. went back to office on Saturday even though I do not have to because I went onboard the previous day
9. my gal attended her first lesson at Yamaha Music School, I was not inside the class to accompany her because my knowledge of music sucks, so I asked my wife to go in. Heard that our gal cried initially when teacher asked her to sing aloud. But slowly, she adapted n went along with the class.

That's all for today n try to update my blog as frequent as possible. Stay tuned...

New Marine South Pier

28 March 2006

I was thinking what did I do today...

Now I remembered, I went onboard at about 1pm n did not take my lunch. Until about 4.20pm, then I reached back on Clifford Pier. Quickly went back to office to finish something n went home at 6pm as usual.

Then received my wife's sms saying that she has terrible stomachache. So I got rush home to fetch our girl myself. Sometimes when I rains, I cannot reach home in time to fetch our girl but the bus driver is kind enough to wait for us whenever we are late. N so we did the same without complain when they were late to send our girl home. Unlike their lady boss, kept calling n complaining that we are late. Then when we are early, she never praise us.

At night at about 10.30pm, met Bren n X for a pool session. At 1am, the place have to close, so was forced to leave. Then went for supper until about 2am.

Quite tired but it was quite sometime since we last met up. X suggested a BBQ some day n so did my wife.

Installed a new software on my N3230 n can take funny photos. Below are some photos taken using the software.

27 March 2006 - Tired day

Yesterday went to PTP n sleep for 2 hours only. So today whole day very tired. Before I went to work at 12pm, I sent my bike for inspection at Sim Ming area. Failed the test the first time, then went to change tire for $96 n went back for retest. Passed but heart pain because spent money again. These 3 months spent a lot on motorbike. Next month roadtax n insurance expiring, got to pay another $300. My savings sucked dry again n again.

At 11am, everything settled, then went to Casio service centre to repair my wife's new Casio Exilim Z110. But seems like there's no problem when the girl tested the camera for me. I think it's my own mistake that I did not insert the cable fully into the camera, that's why the computer cannot detect the camera. Good news for today, as this is how I told my wife.

Reached office at 12pm, went to makan, went back office n work work work.

Then at night watched DVD, Jumanji 2.

Tired out...

26 March 2006 - Blood Drive

Today woke up at about 8am even though yesterday slept at about 4am. I don't normally sleep very long hours so usually wake up at 9am. But my wife is still sleeping, guess she tired out during the D&D.

At about 10.30am, we reached Woodlands CC for the blood drive. Supposed to reach at 8.45am but I already told our friend, T that we would be late since my wife's D&D ended late. Saw him n some familar faces n my wife joined in n helped out voluntarily. She is part of the commitee group n I am not. Both of us cannot join the same commitee if not no one will be taking care of our girl.

At about 12pm, I left the place n went to settle some unfinished matters of yesterday n went to Sim Lim Square to buy a 1GB SD card for my wife new camera. It costs $54 for 1GB n $30+ for a 512MB. Last time, I bought a 128MB SD card at $20+, now it's so cheap so I just had to get the 1GB for future proof. Bought the Transcend which has only 1 year warranty n tested it on the spot. Photo taking is ok, then when I tested the video recording mode, something was wrong when playback. So I went back to ask n the salesperson took a Kingston SD card for me to test, it's working perfectly. Both costs the same but Kingston has lifetime warranty. You might ask, why not get Kingston in the first place since both costs the same n Kingston has lifetime warranty?
The reason is, Kingston although is a reputable brand for RAMs, but it does not mean it's good in flash memory n users are complaining Kingston SD or MMC are giving them problems. So I tried to avoid buying it n chose Transcend. By the way, lifetime warranty does not mean while the company is still alive, you are exchange for a new SD card whenever it's spoilt. Lifetime warranty means as long as this product is still in production, it's still under warranty but once it's end of production, no more warranty for it.

Finishes everything n reached back at Woodlands CC at about 3.15pm. Saw my wife sitting down by the stage n was told that she has a stomachache. So we requested to leave early n borrowed T's car to fetch my girl at Ang Mo Kio where my in-laws stay. Although his is an old car, it still feels good driving it. Any car is better than my Yamaha RX-Z.

Returned the car after using n wanted to give him $15 for the petrol I used. He refused to accept.

Then received first call from manager asking me to go onboard a barge called Premium, she is in Singapore bunkering. Then within 5 mins, he called again asking me to go PTP instead because another colleague of mine got no car this week (he traded in his Nissan Sunny for Nissan Latio). The time that I must reach there is about midnight but I have never go in in the night because I requested not to as it's dangerous riding bike where a stretch of road has got no lights at all. But I never deny orders, only obey them. Was thinking whether to borrow car from my colleague, Nick. But after discussing with him, realised it's too troublesome so gave up the idea. Told myself, just be extra careful, then nothing should happen.

Indeed everything was quite smooth except when I returned to Singapore, something happened...

I was stopped by a plain clothes police in Singapore custom n was told to dismount my bike. Then followed him to a place where I have to urinate for them to do testing. They wanted to test whether I was on drugs. After about 15 mins, I was cleared n freed to go. This has never happened to me n I wondered if it happened to my colleagues before.

Reached home at 3am n went to sleep...

25 March 2006

Today reaches Parkway Parade at about 9.15am after eating breakfast at the nearby hawker centre. Then I saw many people gathering near the centre of Parkway Parade looking down. Loud music n noise are heard from far, I was attracted to it too. Looking down, I saw a number of male models walking around rehearsing for some kind of Fashion Show. Then came some female models after the male models are done.




Poorly taken photos because I was at level 2 while they are at B1 n I used a camera phone with digital zoom. N I thought I was hardworking to work on a Saturday morning (even though it's not my working Saturday), but I guess this models were even hardworking since they already start rehearsing before I start work.

After work, I went to Flavin Lights at Balestier to buy the light cover for the dining light at $75. After explaining that why I only need the light cover n not the entire bundle which comes with the wire n the bulb, she gave a discount n a new light bulb worth $11. Nice lady n nice lights she got in her shop.

Then I went to manager's house to replace the old USB ADSL modem to a new ethernet ADSL modem because he recontracted his Singnet plan n got a free ADSL modem. Nowadays, free modems are common so everyone shoukl have at least one modem at home n I got 2. After that, installed a free DVD player software in the computer n all done. Left the place n headed to next destination. my friend's house.

Since my friend's house is just nearby, so I messaged him before I went over to tell him the estimated time I will be there. But he did not reply. Then when I was done with the computer, I called him. No answer! Called again, no answer again. No choice but to make my way there first. Reached the place, parked my bike n called, still no answer. Messaged him to tell him I am downstair already n went to the coffeeshop to wait. After about 10 mins, he called back. He was sleeping lah. Wah piang, already told him estimated what time reaching, he still sleep? While waiting for him, a malay girl approaches me for donation to some kind of organisation for $5. I always have a weakness to reject them because it's for charity, so gave her the last $5 in my wallet. Have not had lunch, so no choice but to ask my friend to treat me. So pai seh...
Gossip a bit n talked about my work, then he said he got to go because meeting another friend.

Before I proceeded to the next destination, went to the temple to pray asking for blessing n peace. Recently, my wife complained that she cannot sleep well n suspected that something is wondering the house as she feels uneasy. Next destination, 四马路。

Reach 四马路to search for 大悲咒 audio cd. But too many audio cds until I do not know which to choose. In the end, did not buy. Wanted to go into the 四马路 temple to pray another time but realised no money for the donations. Went to search for atm n took quite a while to find it. After withdrawing money, I went to buy ice-cream but I need to relieve myself but got no coins in the pocket too. Quickly finish the ice-cream n went to look for toilet. Finally, I can go to the temple now. Sign...
After praying n took 3 tailsmans for protection.

Next destination is to Lim Ah Boy shop to buy some 2T lubricate for my motorbike. It's been raining n stopping the whole day but luckily the rain did not last long so I do not need to wear the raincoat.

By the time I finished with all the shopping, it's about 6pm. Time for dinner but I could find no one to join me for dinner. In the end, went home to rest n surf internet thinking there might be someone online n can chat with me. To my disappointment, all were offline. Waited till 11pm before joining Bren for supper. He came to fetch me in his father's Toyota Camry. First time sitting in his car because it's less than 6 months old n Bren do not usually use his father's car as he got a van to bring him around. I always wished to own a car or even van but too bad I cannot afford it. Used to co-own a Daihatsu 1000cc car but too problematic so scrapped it away after 1 years of use.

Returned home at about 12.30am n waited my wife to return home from her D&D. She told me ending at about 1am n someone will send her back. But I still need to wait for her in case she takes cab n no one send her to the door. When she returned home at about 3am, she was with a couple of friends as they needed to use the toilet. Chit chat a bit n left at about 3.45am. She won a Casio Exilim Z110 at the D&D n this was something she always wanted. I played with it for a while n went to sleep...

What a busy day!

24 March 2006

Today is my birthday but there's no celebration today as I had to go onboard at 4pm. Then came back on shore at about 9pm. Went to my in-law's house n fetch my wife. She brought our girl to my in-law's house n leave her over the weekend. I got the following things to do so got no choice but to send my girl away:
1. Go to the manager's house to service his computer
2. Go back office to do some paperworks even though it's not my working Saturday
3. Buy back the dining table lamp because I washed it n the whole thing soften down
4. Buy 2T for my motorbike
5. Meet a friend for lunch n talk
6. Then on Sunday, my wife needs to go for a blood drive organised by CDC

Busy right, but that's the way it is. Since I got the whole Saturday to myself, got to do many things. It is not very often that I get a chance to have a day off :)

23 March 2006

Today is a busy day n so will the rest of the week until next week. Heard that Boss is hiring more people to help up. At about 5.30pm, about 8 bunker clerk came in the office for a meeting suggested by Boss. Everyone was chatting away happily but when Boss came in, the tension build up. I heard the meeting ended around 7pm. luckily I was not called in to join the meeting. Every weekday at 6pm, I would rush home to fetch my wife at the sembawang mrt n then pillon her back to our house. Then at about 6.50pm, our girl's school school will reach downstair. It's become a routine n I got used to it.

But today, my wife did not come back to cook dinner, she has got a meeting at woodlands. There's a blood drive at woodlands CC n hopefully there are many people coming forward to donate blood. I donated my first blood on 27th Nov 2005 n I think I might be donating again. It's not painful but I am scared of needles. Hehe...

My girl was sad when she saw that most of her fishes died. She has caught 12 fishes during the recent excursion to fish farm. She was so happy n excited, n I bought a small fish tank n a filter for her fishes. But seems like my luck with fishes are quite bad, now it's only left with 4 fishes. She cried twice because she loss 8 fishes. Poor thing...

At about 12.15am, I met up with Bren, one of my best friend since secondary days. Know him n another guy. X, for more than 10 years. Time really flies. He passed me the roadtax for my bike n then passed me a paper bag with something inside. I have yet checked what's inside but I think it's a T-shirt because he said it's for me to wear when I exercise. It's a gift for my birthday, 24th March. Then we were discussing whether X will remember if it's my birthday. To me, it does not matters whether they remember my birthday or whether if they celebrate with me, importantly is that we are still best friends n stay healthy. Then once in a while, take leave n go out makan some nice food. Nowadays we do not meet often, maybe once every 2 - 3 months.

At 1.30pm, received call from bunker clerk to go onboard but something unpleasant happened n I do not wish to elaborate more. In the end, I did not go onboard. Came home within 10 mins when I reached Clifford Pier.

It's 3.15am n it's time to sleep...

22 March 2006

It was raining when I was going home at about 6pm. So got to put on my raincoat n rain shoes. Today is our 6th wedding aniversary n I actually forgotten it. My wife was waiting for me to send her flowers but I think she was rather disappointed n for the second time this year. I also did not send her flowers this valentine, not totally my fault because I did ordered the flowers online but the flowers were not delivered on time so I called to cancelled it. My wife knocks off at 6pm but when I called the florist, she said they will arrive at her office at about 7pm. Took in so many orders but cannot cope with all the orders. Never will I order from them again, will find a shop near to my wife's workplace next year as what I did every year. But early last year, she was still working at Bugis, so I know where to get the flowers. Since she changed job, I do not know where
to get the flowers. Will make it a point to search for the shop early next year.

Since today is our aniversary n I did not buy any presents (oops), I decide to bring her to eat something better (althought not very grand or special). We ate at Country Mana since this is the only restaurant in Sun Plaza other than a Chinese Restaurant. I ordered Teriyaki Chicken with Salmon, my wife ordered Mana Half Chicken n my girl ordered Fried Tender Chicken with Fries. N a bowl of Cream of Mushroom for a starter.



After that she ate a cup of Sundae ice-cream from McDonald before we went home because she fell down when I was playing hide n seek with her. So my wife "sayang" her by treating her ice-cream. Ice-cream is my girl's favourite food.

Today got a scolding from Boss. Not just me, but all 5 Checkers got the scoldings because business no good, so Boss thought we are not doing our job properly. N asked why we are not going out n spot checking the barges instead sitting down comfortably in our seat during office hour. If we do not need to do paper work, then we go out there n check anytime. Then Boss said got problems must tell, got suggestions must say. Heard from the old timer, every 6 months, he will sit down n complain business no good. Hopefully I will still be writing blog in next 6 months, then know if it's true that every 6 months will give a lecture.

Sleep at 12am because my wife n I watched DVD. Got so many DVDs but no time to watch. That's all for today.

21 March 2006

Today left office at 7.10pm and went to Clifford Pier to collect oil sample. Went to SGS lab, left the oil sample for testing n left the place. But the lab test technician so proud. Told him urgent before I left the place, he replied, "Don't tell me urgent, I got so many tests to do." Then I told him, "I must let you know it's urgent, if not you don't know n do it slowly." Then he replied but I can make up what he said n I quickly leave the place as he don't looked happy. As if he is doing the test for free, our company pays him $ one, ok!!! These people just think that we really needs his help and so don't give us face.

Anyway, I did not stay long because my mother came to our house to visit us. She even cooked dinner for us, then my wife can take a rest for the night. I know it is very tiring to cook almost every night after a long day's work. She looks so stress after work because her boss think highly of her n gave her important tasks to do alone. Do not need to talk much about her job as she has her own blog here.

I told my wife will reach home by 9pm n indeed, I reached home at 8.50pm even after I went to nearby provision shop to buy eggs n toothpaste for my girl. Not forgetting my girl's blog is here. My mother cooked steam fishes, egg n brocolli. Forgot to take pictures of these dishes. I guess I am still not used to using my phone n take pictures as I go. Last time when I was working in MINDEF, I cannot take camera phone, now that I changed job, no one can stop me from carrying camera phone n a thumbdrive in my pocket. It's so shiok to carry these gadgets around especially if you are a technie-savvy guy like myself. Nowadays I always bring my Blue Billionton BT doogle n my Red Lexar 256MB thumbdrive to work.

After dinner, chatted for a while with my mother. Been quite sometime since we last chatted, we always did not chatted so well because I used to be very naughty n hated to talk to her. I think kids are all like that n I can feel the stress when my girl do not want to talk to me. The last time when my mother came over, she heard me scolding my girl, then she told me to relax n teach her slowly, don't stress her. I guess when one gets older, they gets more mature in thinking. She used to be very strict with me too but now she asked me to teach my girl slowly n don't stress her. Then when I was young, I always don't talk or listen to her, now I wished time would turn back so that I can treat her better. Then when I was young, I also spent her money unwisely. If I had controlled n self-desciplined myself, she would had more than $xxxxx in savings. I used up most of her savings to buy motorcycle. It's a total waste of money, that's why now I only ride a Yamaha RX-Z n bought it with my own money from my best friend, Mr Loh.

At about 10pm, my mother went home alone. How I wished I got a car to drive her home but that's impossible within these few years unless...? Everytime I see her, she seems older n weaker. She also told me her leg is painful nowadays so she reduced her working days about 2 weeks ago. I wonder I have enough money to support her when she grows old.

Today wrote a lot, I guess this serves as a good memory for future reference. Will write even more in future. I think there's a lot of gammer mistakes here, so please pardon my language.